It's difficult to watch while Jakob is in pain and struggling, knowing that he and his temper are the cause for at least some of that pain. Not just the physical injury, but the emotional as well, as baffling as it may be to Add. Why does Jakob have to be like this? Just because Add is his god... even if Add did try to outright kill him, would he not even resist or care?
And it doesn't make it any easier when Jakob collapses into him so helplessly. Electricity crackles across his skin, and no doubt Jakob is getting an uncomfortable static shock from that first contact, though fortunately it's not enough to do any damage. Add's body stiffens, equal parts trying not to interrupt the Void Field and being completely unsure of how to handle this development. Jakob is practically hugging him here. As if he needed more things to confuse and distract him, now his shinki is crying into his chest and begging him to leave.
But he doesn't budge from Jakob's shoving. He gnaws his lip, trying to turn his gaze to the side but finding it difficult to look away when there are frozen corpses on all around them. If Add moves from this spot, the field will disperse and all of them will converge on Jakob.
"I'm not leaving you, so stop asking already," he growls low, straining to keep his voice even. "I'm already bad enough of a god... as if I need a dead shinki on my record. No one else would be stupid enough to follow me. So you're not allowed to die under my watch. Is that clear?"
He can't abandon Jakob, but he's driven himself into a corner. Void Field is only useful if someone else can escape or clear the monsters while Add has them busy. If Jakob refuses to do either, all he did was delay them for a little while.
If Jakob won't act, then...
"... there's only a small chance of them being real, but... the chance of casualty is much higher..."
Trying now to preserve the specimen would mean leaving Jakob unguarded, in the way, and at a high risk of injury or death. That's not something Ludger or Roxas would want him to do for their sakes. If it's not even guaranteed to save them, or even that they're really here... the scales are too unbalanced, even if he measures Roxas' friendship as infinitely more valuable.
There will be other opportunities... ones that won't involve his friends begging for release.
"... I won't ask you again. If you're going to do it, then do it now. Don't tell me you've already lost your nerve. I can't hold them still forever, you know." And the exhaustion is rapidly seeping into his voice, as much as he's willing himself to hold on.
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And it doesn't make it any easier when Jakob collapses into him so helplessly. Electricity crackles across his skin, and no doubt Jakob is getting an uncomfortable static shock from that first contact, though fortunately it's not enough to do any damage. Add's body stiffens, equal parts trying not to interrupt the Void Field and being completely unsure of how to handle this development. Jakob is practically hugging him here. As if he needed more things to confuse and distract him, now his shinki is crying into his chest and begging him to leave.
But he doesn't budge from Jakob's shoving. He gnaws his lip, trying to turn his gaze to the side but finding it difficult to look away when there are frozen corpses on all around them. If Add moves from this spot, the field will disperse and all of them will converge on Jakob.
"I'm not leaving you, so stop asking already," he growls low, straining to keep his voice even. "I'm already bad enough of a god... as if I need a dead shinki on my record. No one else would be stupid enough to follow me. So you're not allowed to die under my watch. Is that clear?"
He can't abandon Jakob, but he's driven himself into a corner. Void Field is only useful if someone else can escape or clear the monsters while Add has them busy. If Jakob refuses to do either, all he did was delay them for a little while.
If Jakob won't act, then...
"... there's only a small chance of them being real, but... the chance of casualty is much higher..."
Trying now to preserve the specimen would mean leaving Jakob unguarded, in the way, and at a high risk of injury or death. That's not something Ludger or Roxas would want him to do for their sakes. If it's not even guaranteed to save them, or even that they're really here... the scales are too unbalanced, even if he measures Roxas' friendship as infinitely more valuable.
There will be other opportunities... ones that won't involve his friends begging for release.
"... I won't ask you again. If you're going to do it, then do it now. Don't tell me you've already lost your nerve. I can't hold them still forever, you know." And the exhaustion is rapidly seeping into his voice, as much as he's willing himself to hold on.