[Oh, why has he not started on - on making tea, or something? If only he had something to do with his hands. Except that would not help matters either, all that would be good for is delaying things, though he isn't quite sure what he is delaying: nobody ever knows quite what it is to achieve a task, if that task has been only described to them.
[So: he knows, does he not, what needs to be done now? Had discussed it, even, in the confident way that men discuss the theoretical. Maybe he is not looking forward to it, but - well, it is probably good for them both, or something of that nature, and in that case it hardly matters whether or not he wants to do it, wants that responsibility, would ever have dreamed of asking someone else to fight for him. He is, absurd and impertinent as it sounds, a God - for now, at least. And, here at least, a God is nothing without a shinki.
[And yet--
[There was something else; something about how wrong it would be, to bestow a name on - on another man's servant. He has to be sure.]
You say you were looking for your God. Did you happen to find them, or - or are you still searching?
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[Yet, something in him feels the need to add.
[Oh, why has he not started on - on making tea, or something? If only he had something to do with his hands. Except that would not help matters either, all that would be good for is delaying things, though he isn't quite sure what he is delaying: nobody ever knows quite what it is to achieve a task, if that task has been only described to them.
[So: he knows, does he not, what needs to be done now? Had discussed it, even, in the confident way that men discuss the theoretical. Maybe he is not looking forward to it, but - well, it is probably good for them both, or something of that nature, and in that case it hardly matters whether or not he wants to do it, wants that responsibility, would ever have dreamed of asking someone else to fight for him. He is, absurd and impertinent as it sounds, a God - for now, at least. And, here at least, a God is nothing without a shinki.
[And yet--
[There was something else; something about how wrong it would be, to bestow a name on - on another man's servant. He has to be sure.]
You say you were looking for your God. Did you happen to find them, or - or are you still searching?