[ It's more that he considered himself to be very bad and has a very high guilt complex. ]

I, uh, made some bad decisions in how I reacted to a few things. After I was shown how it was causing blight, I tried using that to try and force my god's hand into releasing my name. Y'know, so she wouldn't have to worry about it happening again.

[ That's it in the tightest nutshell possible. ]

I was really being an idiot.