[His grip tightens further, his fingers digging into Shun's arm.]

Then...tell me...what do you think you can do when the only option I have is to not think about it?

[If that's the only thing he can do, then he's failed, many times over. If he ever thinks of something he shouldn't—if he can't prevent his emotions from spilling over—]

[Numbness can only last so long.] That’s not something any of us can change. I can't...erase my memory.

I don't want to be k—to be...killed. And I don't want you to do it. To have to be the one to do it. But I—

[The possibility has been looming since...ever. It hangs over all shinki. But especially someone who can't—]

But if it ever comes to that, I have to be stopped. That's not pointless. That's not...wallowing, Shun. ...If it sounded like conjecture...it's because I needed to know what you'd do.

It's just...a worst-case scenario. ...I promise.