[Slowly, Fubuki descends into laughter despite himself, turning his face away. An offer to help control his emotions better...Fubuki's made that suggestion to Shun, once, when they were talking about Shun's anger, and Shun had dismissed it out of hand because, as he put it, there was nothing Fubuki could do to help with that.]
You punch ayakashi when you're upset, Shun...don't make offers you can't follow through on. [Getting violent to blow off steam isn't an option for Fubuki when fear of that violent part of himself is what's causing at least one of Fubuki's problems.]
All I needed was your assurance. That was all I was asking for.
[He...may not have been a good person. He condones murder. He's condoned murder to someone who's considered doing it. That was when he was tired and his inhibitions were down. But that's not something that Shun, who Fubuki knows by know doesn't even care about that, can help him with. If the parts of himself that he's afraid of are things that other people scoff at, that's not something other people can help him with. That's just who he is. Crossing the lines, putting himself at risk of turning into an ayakashi, intentionally or not, aware that he's doing it or not...what can anyone do when his emotions are making it feel like the end of the world. When even his own memories of a dead person won't give him a reprieve when said memories are the issue.]
Do you know what that aversion feels like, Shun? Things that can be overcome. It's dread, and panic, and fear, and guilt. You...you're a god. You can feel the guilt, and you can tell where I am, and you can teleport. But first you have to find four shinki. At least one of them has to know how to do an ablution. How long do you think that would take? ...How many people can you teleport at once? ...How many...people...do I have to fail to save...
[...Turning into an ayakashi was never the actual problem. He just needed to know a safeguard existed. A lifeline. ...But ultimately, it was a distraction.]
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You punch ayakashi when you're upset, Shun...don't make offers you can't follow through on. [Getting violent to blow off steam isn't an option for Fubuki when fear of that violent part of himself is what's causing at least one of Fubuki's problems.]
All I needed was your assurance. That was all I was asking for.
[He...may not have been a good person. He condones murder. He's condoned murder to someone who's considered doing it. That was when he was tired and his inhibitions were down. But that's not something that Shun, who Fubuki knows by know doesn't even care about that, can help him with. If the parts of himself that he's afraid of are things that other people scoff at, that's not something other people can help him with. That's just who he is. Crossing the lines, putting himself at risk of turning into an ayakashi, intentionally or not, aware that he's doing it or not...what can anyone do when his emotions are making it feel like the end of the world. When even his own memories of a dead person won't give him a reprieve when said memories are the issue.]
Do you know what that aversion feels like, Shun? Things that can be overcome. It's dread, and panic, and fear, and guilt. You...you're a god. You can feel the guilt, and you can tell where I am, and you can teleport. But first you have to find four shinki. At least one of them has to know how to do an ablution. How long do you think that would take? ...How many people can you teleport at once? ...How many...people...do I have to fail to save...
[...Turning into an ayakashi was never the actual problem. He just needed to know a safeguard existed. A lifeline. ...But ultimately, it was a distraction.]