[Still there's got to be something. Dean doesn't believe in random stuff. It may look random for a while but - there's always something - a pattern a reason.]

That had to have been a rush. All of those sudden memories, thoughts, feelings. [And in reverse it would make someone very hollow, empty - upsetting to say the least.]

If you had to choose which you were which would you want to be? [The question has no point he's just curious.]