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Who: Everyone!
What: Autumn Reception
When: September 30, 6 PM
Where: The Gods' Meeting Hall
Summary: The Heavens are throwing a formal party! Old and new gods alike are invited, so put on your nicest outfits and some good dancing shoes, and come see what this shindig is all about.

Continuing from HERE!

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It doesn't get easier if I avoid parties.

[He quirks one eyebrow at Dean. He's here to check for important information, talk to a few people and make sure nothing burns down spectacularly; then he's going to make an early night of it.]

So I may as well be here as anywhere else. -- Besides, it's a decent place to let people know that I do remember.

Depends. I didn't ask if it was easier. I asked if you were alright enough. Like are you healed enough to be steady and stable on your feet, able to fend for yourself if you need - not that I think anything will happen but like you said last time; you never know.

[His head tilts and he's giving Hakkai's shoulder a squeeze. They're not friends but they're similar enough that well Dean might be seeing him as something close to an acquaintance.]

Just looking out for you. Coming back from the dead is really disorienting - at least in my experience. Might be a bit different here but yeah.

[Hakkai goes briefly, awkwardly wooden as Dean reaches out to give his shoulder a friendly squeeze, but he doesn't pull away. Instead, he manages a mild smile.]

I seem to have come back with my wounds healed, conveniently.

[Not even any bruising on his throat; and the death had been quick. He's felt far worse pain and despair.

If anything, the aftermath has been the more annoying part. Why so many people have chosen to be personally offended by Hakkai's misjudgment--]

... And it's not my first time. [Counting his time here as a shinki, it's really his third return from the dead so far. His smile thins.] Also conveniently.

[Dean's not used to being the one to help but he knows contact is good for helping with comfort and the like. But he's keeping it brief both for Hakkai's comfort and his own, drawing his hand back and dropping it to his side.]

That is convenient but definitely a good thing.

[He's known that feeling he's come back okay and he's come back not so okay. He's come back messed up and as a demon so Dean thinks he understands a bit better than the Average Joe might.

Not that he comments on that. It's not his place and this is about Hakkai not him.]

You've died here before? Doesn't seem very convenient to me. [Or maybe Hakkai means it was convenient for someone else? That might be it depending on what the other man has gotten up to and figured out thus far.]

Not here, no, unless you count the fact that I was a shinki for my first several months.

[Which is disturbingly close to being dead, in more than one way. Hakkai shakes his head, clearly a little more at ease now that Dean's no longer squeezing his shoulder. Physical contact isn't something he's ever been very good at.]

But I meant more that I've had the chance to adjust to the sensation.

That's a bit odd - not in a bad way just interesting. What a strange shift.

[He wouldn't know what being a Shinki is like exactly but he wouldn't want to be there. He wouldn't wish that on his worst enemy.]

I don't know that that kind of thing is possible but I'm taking your word for it.

I'm not the only one -- and a number of gods have become shinki, too, for that matter. Most of us don't seem to remember.

[He shakes his head, and adds:]

In my opinion, whatever magic brought us here and is keeping us here is unstable.

Huh. That's interesting. I can't imagine what that would be like. Being one then becoming the other, I assume when you go from Shinki to God you remember everything from your life before?

[He's mulling over Hakkai's words a moment before nodding his head. ]

I can honestly say that makes the most sense. That might been why people vanish, too. Maybe the pull of their old life or their desire to leave is strong enough to break the spell this place has.

I don't think that can be it.

[Not considering how much, sometimes, he's wanted to leave. Not considering how little some of the other people he knows might have wanted it. No.]

I think it's simply unstable, and unpredictable. I haven't been able to determine any kind of pattern in who disappears, or when. As for my memory... yes. I was one of the shinki who started to remember fragments of my life, and by the time I became a god, it was a significant portion of the four or five years before I came here. When I became a god, the rest of it came back to me.

[Still there's got to be something. Dean doesn't believe in random stuff. It may look random for a while but - there's always something - a pattern a reason.]

That had to have been a rush. All of those sudden memories, thoughts, feelings. [And in reverse it would make someone very hollow, empty - upsetting to say the least.]

If you had to choose which you were which would you want to be? [The question has no point he's just curious.]

[A rush. That's one way to put it: he'd known some of his losses, but not all of them, and the rest had come crashing in, realization all the more painful for how useless it was, how late it came.

He's silent for a long moment, and then glances away.]

Neither. Between the two, I won't say I'd rather not know; shinki have it worse, after all, here. And yet...

[And yet, he's hardly suited to be a god, either. Certainly not suited to make his own decisions, or, even more ridiculous, be worshipped by others.]

[Dean considers Hakkai's answer for a moment before nodding. He can respect that but he doesn't agree.]

I think I'd rather know. As ill-suited as I am to be a god at least with what I do know I could be somewhat useful to someone.

[And he has someone to look after. He has Castiel to take care of. Knowing things if only for his sake... Dean thinks that's important.] At least.. I think I could be at any rate.

I did find, as a shinki, I hadn't lost any of my professional expertise.

[Although it had worried him sometimes. He'd just been too good at fighting, his instincts too brutal, for peace of mind.

He supposes it might be easier for people who had lived peaceful lives.]

Good to know if something unfortunate like that were to happen.

[Unfortunate in it would make watching Castiel impossible. Castiel needs him and if he loses knowledge of that fact, Cas would be on his own. That ain't happening Dean won't let it.]

I'd hate to be left totally defenseless. I've got some decent fighting skills so it'd be really annoying to forget stuff I've spent most of my life learning.

Yes. The real problem is the information you lose, not the skills.

[And so, for instance, you might not know what to do, or who you're meeting, even when you should. He shakes his head, after a moment, sighing.]

Sometimes, I suppose it's enlightening. To meet someone for the first time twice, for example...

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