"Because..." Chikusa's mouth tightens a little bit in the corner, the words hard to find and just as hard to speak aloud into the open air. He knows what the problem is, deep down inside himself, but it's getting it out there that's the problem. "What if it means... I'm not really loyal to him... if I immediately go find someone else just because he left? Then I don't know... what I would be."

But there's a problem with that, of course, and Chikusa remembers to add it on. "I don't know how to do loyalty... like you do." One shoulder twitches up, a bit of a shrug. "It'd probably be easier for me if I did..."

But he can only be himself, whatever that might mean.