There was a moment in time when he felt everything winding tight. Perhaps not winding, but filling up to the brim. When there was only so much he could take before it finally glimmered over the edge and spilled. That moment. Right before Rin smiled and Sousuke knew his best friend was going to be alright. It’d been a hell of a wake up call in the middle of the night; the moon still outside illuminated the bed with patches of silver rays diced through by the elegant designs across the glass. But just like the sakura trees surrounding the castle, the interior was once again peaceful and calm. Some of what had been missing—the most important parts of what had been missing—were now returned. Not enough to see his entire reflection, but more than enough for him to know he was who he was looking at.
Sousuke blinked as fingers settled on his shoulder. The one where his shinki name lay emblazoned over his skin. The one that had broken down… and rendered his dream a shattered darkness. There was no pain. The burning throb and the stabbing ice down to the core of his muscle failed to rise to the surface. Yet his mind remembered it. From the times he lay in bed above Rin in the Samezuka dorms, gritting his teeth and clenching his shoulder until his knuckles turned red and his lips threatened to bleed, doing everything he could not to make a single noise or motion that might give away his failure to the young man sleeping below him.
Rin would never know… That was what he determined to undertake. And eventually, even that determination fell apart. Rin knew… All this time, he’d known. The attention to his shoulder, the firm insistence that Sousuke submit to a massage after swimming, the quiet eye watching to make sure he didn’t overdo himself in the pool. That was why… You never stopped protecting me. Even from myself.
He grunted a little when his forehead got pushed, but it was enough to part them so Rin could tug his hand out and put it on the bed. His lover’s reaction wasn’t entirely surprising either. With his memories now, Rin knew Sousuke also knew, and he was fast enough to put things together pretty quickly. Even during intimate times, Rin paid attention to him, kissing his shoulder, frowning if he thought Sousuke rolled his arm too far despite the swimmer’s flexible shoulders. Fingers cupped as they were over the curve of his shoulder, Sousuke silently admitted to the past as Rin held him protectively. The negative cloud may be gone here, but it remained waiting for them when they got home… But, it was gone here. There was no point inviting the troubles that didn’t need to be present.
Sousuke breathed out in relief and pleasure as Rin sank down upon him, long legs tangling together as their chests and hips came flush to each other. Touching everywhere they could… The taller boy slowly lifted his legs, threading them through Rin’s and hooking around them as his loverl rested his head on his collar. Sousuke now recognized the irony of his shoulders being one of his erogenous zones… and why Rin was always a little hesitant to indulge that. He tilted his head down, lips nuzzling against Rin’s head as his boyfriend presented such a simple, treasured, and ludicrous request. How could he refuse such a thing?
“Saying such a thing to me now…” Sousuke kissed the top of Rin’s head, lipping some of the glossy maroon strands. “Aa. If it ever does… I promise. I won’t hide from you again.”
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Sousuke blinked as fingers settled on his shoulder. The one where his shinki name lay emblazoned over his skin. The one that had broken down… and rendered his dream a shattered darkness. There was no pain. The burning throb and the stabbing ice down to the core of his muscle failed to rise to the surface. Yet his mind remembered it. From the times he lay in bed above Rin in the Samezuka dorms, gritting his teeth and clenching his shoulder until his knuckles turned red and his lips threatened to bleed, doing everything he could not to make a single noise or motion that might give away his failure to the young man sleeping below him.
Rin would never know… That was what he determined to undertake. And eventually, even that determination fell apart. Rin knew… All this time, he’d known. The attention to his shoulder, the firm insistence that Sousuke submit to a massage after swimming, the quiet eye watching to make sure he didn’t overdo himself in the pool. That was why… You never stopped protecting me. Even from myself.
He grunted a little when his forehead got pushed, but it was enough to part them so Rin could tug his hand out and put it on the bed. His lover’s reaction wasn’t entirely surprising either. With his memories now, Rin knew Sousuke also knew, and he was fast enough to put things together pretty quickly. Even during intimate times, Rin paid attention to him, kissing his shoulder, frowning if he thought Sousuke rolled his arm too far despite the swimmer’s flexible shoulders. Fingers cupped as they were over the curve of his shoulder, Sousuke silently admitted to the past as Rin held him protectively. The negative cloud may be gone here, but it remained waiting for them when they got home… But, it was gone here. There was no point inviting the troubles that didn’t need to be present.
Sousuke breathed out in relief and pleasure as Rin sank down upon him, long legs tangling together as their chests and hips came flush to each other. Touching everywhere they could… The taller boy slowly lifted his legs, threading them through Rin’s and hooking around them as his loverl rested his head on his collar. Sousuke now recognized the irony of his shoulders being one of his erogenous zones… and why Rin was always a little hesitant to indulge that. He tilted his head down, lips nuzzling against Rin’s head as his boyfriend presented such a simple, treasured, and ludicrous request. How could he refuse such a thing?
“Saying such a thing to me now…” Sousuke kissed the top of Rin’s head, lipping some of the glossy maroon strands. “Aa. If it ever does… I promise. I won’t hide from you again.”