Adrien bites his lower lip toying with his muffin after a moment. "I see." His other hand toys with his shirt hem, following the stitching lazily - a habit he'd picked up from Emilie when she'd gotten nervous. "That's not my real worry. I just want you to be careful. I don't want you to get hurt."
Because he can't tell Shin about his death - if he could that might make this SO much easier but he can't so there's no way to explain this fear and worry he has lurking in his chest. He can still hear the sound of breaking bones, bloody gasps and Shin's death rattle in his ears. He remembers wanting to scream at what he saw, what he heard.
Sure Shin wasn't blameless or a saint by any stretch of the imagination but it wasn't his fault. The woman was married - she sought Shin out most likely. She wasn't happy in her marriage probably. In honesty as Adrien saw it even colored in shades of grey Shin wasn't as deeply as fault as the guard had seemed to think - if anything it was the wife for seeking out Shin and the guard for not providing his wife with the affection and love she clearly had been seeking elsewhere.
"I'm not entirely sure that it worth it or what the perks are but if this is something you want to do I won't stop you from it. Being able to do what feels right to you is important and I don't want you to think I'm trying to control you. But I want you to promise to be careful and if you get into any trouble text or call me. I don't care what kind of mess it is. I'm your first call, Deal?" He's holding a hand out.
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Because he can't tell Shin about his death - if he could that might make this SO much easier but he can't so there's no way to explain this fear and worry he has lurking in his chest. He can still hear the sound of breaking bones, bloody gasps and Shin's death rattle in his ears. He remembers wanting to scream at what he saw, what he heard.
Sure Shin wasn't blameless or a saint by any stretch of the imagination but it wasn't his fault. The woman was married - she sought Shin out most likely. She wasn't happy in her marriage probably. In honesty as Adrien saw it even colored in shades of grey Shin wasn't as deeply as fault as the guard had seemed to think - if anything it was the wife for seeking out Shin and the guard for not providing his wife with the affection and love she clearly had been seeking elsewhere.
"I'm not entirely sure that it worth it or what the perks are but if this is something you want to do I won't stop you from it. Being able to do what feels right to you is important and I don't want you to think I'm trying to control you. But I want you to promise to be careful and if you get into any trouble text or call me. I don't care what kind of mess it is. I'm your first call, Deal?" He's holding a hand out.