[Ken turns his head to press it against Chikusa, trying to burrow it into Chikusa's side as much as possible. He's intensely unhappy with this conversation - with Ayumu's disappearance, with Hakkai and Goku tying themselves to whatever bad ideas Gojyo may have in the future, with not having any say in what's happened or what's going to happen.
Chikusa's there, at least. But the thought of having lost Ayumu, and the fear of what might happen to Hakkai and Goku, and his own past experiences with Chikusa dying and his long history of unhappiness when Chikusa disassociates and leaves Ken technically alone...it's all too easy for him to imagine what would happen if Chikusa disappeared.
Chikusa believes fate intends for them always to be together, but Ken doesn't trust fate or anything else to be that kind. Chikusa worries about Ken and what might happen to him, but he's never experienced Ken dying and leaving him behind in reality. Ken's felt that twice. It's not fate keeping them together; it's luck. And luck doesn't always hold out.]
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Chikusa's there, at least. But the thought of having lost Ayumu, and the fear of what might happen to Hakkai and Goku, and his own past experiences with Chikusa dying and his long history of unhappiness when Chikusa disassociates and leaves Ken technically alone...it's all too easy for him to imagine what would happen if Chikusa disappeared.
Chikusa believes fate intends for them always to be together, but Ken doesn't trust fate or anything else to be that kind. Chikusa worries about Ken and what might happen to him, but he's never experienced Ken dying and leaving him behind in reality. Ken's felt that twice. It's not fate keeping them together; it's luck. And luck doesn't always hold out.]