They were our family. [Ken says this simply.] But all they cared about was making us into weapons anyway, so it's not like we liked 'em.
I dunno if the people you killed deserved it or not, but Kakipi's right; turning into an ayakashi isn't gonna bring 'em back. You might just end up hurting more people. But if not knowing why you did it bugs you, then maybe if you stay here long enough, you'll find out. And then you can decide how you feel about it once it makes more sense, right? So if that's what you're guilty about, you can just...wait until you know more to get upset about it, 'cause only part of a memory's not worth punishing yourself for. [Ken frowns.] And if you don't like that you did something like that, then you can do better things now. But you can't make bad stuff unhappen, even if you die or forget. When Ayumu wanted us to let her die and turned into an ayakashi...things weren't better for her when she came back. She just had the old problems plus a bunch of new ones.
[Ken glances around at the others participating in the ablution.] But yeah, ablution doesn't make everything better just 'cause it keeps you alive, either. You'll still be upset about stuff, even if you get rid of the guilt. But if you don't die...you can get help with the other stuff, too. 'Cause the only reason you're even having an ablution is 'cause there's already people who wanna help you, so it's not like you're gonna be alone.
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I dunno if the people you killed deserved it or not, but Kakipi's right; turning into an ayakashi isn't gonna bring 'em back. You might just end up hurting more people. But if not knowing why you did it bugs you, then maybe if you stay here long enough, you'll find out. And then you can decide how you feel about it once it makes more sense, right? So if that's what you're guilty about, you can just...wait until you know more to get upset about it, 'cause only part of a memory's not worth punishing yourself for. [Ken frowns.] And if you don't like that you did something like that, then you can do better things now. But you can't make bad stuff unhappen, even if you die or forget. When Ayumu wanted us to let her die and turned into an ayakashi...things weren't better for her when she came back. She just had the old problems plus a bunch of new ones.
[Ken glances around at the others participating in the ablution.] But yeah, ablution doesn't make everything better just 'cause it keeps you alive, either. You'll still be upset about stuff, even if you get rid of the guilt. But if you don't die...you can get help with the other stuff, too. 'Cause the only reason you're even having an ablution is 'cause there's already people who wanna help you, so it's not like you're gonna be alone.