[Waver is easing back on the connection slowly as Iskandar speaks. He meant it; he needs to stop... but... not easy... not easy at all.
He can't say where this need to keep Iskandar safe... need to see him well... springs from. Duty? Part of it yes, but... It's the same with Satya, this protectiveness, but it rears its head more with Iskandar. Perhaps because one has much more regard for her health than another, but...
(echoes... of that loss. echoes of the helplessness. echoes of thinking being bonded to him killed him... harmed him because he was himself. of not being enough.)
... it's not a matter of trust or who can bear what, even as he leans back into Iskandar's hand, saying a lot about how he feels without a single word. It's a matter of recognizing when you're in an unhealthy situation.
Neither of them likes it when the other suffers. Neither of them likes it when the other takes and takes and places the burden solely on themselves. Neither of them likes it when the other is put in harm's way or is harmed.
The link means that can get dangerous in so many ways due to its nature. Something has to change. It has to start with him.
Now the barriers have dropped. He can feel as the pain increases, that Archer is doing the same.]
After this. Right now I just need you here.
[That's the important thing. Not feeling things over the link or taking on every burden. Being here. Being not alone.
... there's a lot of people in this room, after all, trying to help each other.
Bone grinding against bone, circuits on acid fire to the point of blindness, Waver dives in again through excruciating pain to comb through mana and pathways...
... but... he wonders... if he can't find anything physical... that means the trigger for the spell is to blame.
And that's mental.
And in that case... he might be able to stop this in its tracks with a complete system reset, but he won't be able to fix the problem outright.]
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He can't say where this need to keep Iskandar safe... need to see him well... springs from. Duty? Part of it yes, but... It's the same with Satya, this protectiveness, but it rears its head more with Iskandar. Perhaps because one has much more regard for her health than another, but...
(echoes... of that loss. echoes of the helplessness. echoes of thinking being bonded to him killed him... harmed him because he was himself. of not being enough.)
... it's not a matter of trust or who can bear what, even as he leans back into Iskandar's hand, saying a lot about how he feels without a single word. It's a matter of recognizing when you're in an unhealthy situation.
Neither of them likes it when the other suffers. Neither of them likes it when the other takes and takes and places the burden solely on themselves. Neither of them likes it when the other is put in harm's way or is harmed.
The link means that can get dangerous in so many ways due to its nature. Something has to change. It has to start with him.
Now the barriers have dropped. He can feel as the pain increases, that Archer is doing the same.]
After this. Right now I just need you here.
[That's the important thing. Not feeling things over the link or taking on every burden. Being here. Being not alone.
... there's a lot of people in this room, after all, trying to help each other.
Bone grinding against bone, circuits on acid fire to the point of blindness, Waver dives in again through excruciating pain to comb through mana and pathways...
... but... he wonders... if he can't find anything physical... that means the trigger for the spell is to blame.
And that's mental.
And in that case... he might be able to stop this in its tracks with a complete system reset, but he won't be able to fix the problem outright.]