[But Caster and Archer? The time for missing them feels long gone, not when she hasn't spoken with them in months. It was the natural drift of different lives moving away. Sometimes she'd see them at a distance at a training session or at any big gathering, but there was never the urge to say anything to them.
Now knowing she won't see them again ever, it's a low sense of sadness but also a sense of relief. It's the relief she can't admit to, not when so many people miss them.]
I made a lot of mistakes my first few months. Things I regret that I can't take back.
[Her composed mask slips as she laughs, dark and self-deprecating. For all the improvement she's shown over the last few months, still waters run deep. Sometimes it's deep water all the way down and sometimes it doesn't take long to hid mud.]
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[But Caster and Archer? The time for missing them feels long gone, not when she hasn't spoken with them in months. It was the natural drift of different lives moving away. Sometimes she'd see them at a distance at a training session or at any big gathering, but there was never the urge to say anything to them.
Now knowing she won't see them again ever, it's a low sense of sadness but also a sense of relief. It's the relief she can't admit to, not when so many people miss them.]
I made a lot of mistakes my first few months. Things I regret that I can't take back.
[Her composed mask slips as she laughs, dark and self-deprecating. For all the improvement she's shown over the last few months, still waters run deep. Sometimes it's deep water all the way down and sometimes it doesn't take long to hid mud.]
I suppose no one knows now but me.