"Then you are following the core purpose of kyudo. I'm not sure what help I can offer..."

[His fingers rub along the curved wood still in his hands, a little nervous, a little thoughtful.]

"But I think... If you keep focusing on that quiet grounded aspect, if you focus more on the pull and tension of the bow, it might help you come to terms a little more with it."

[Ebisu nods excitedly from where he's standing.]

All that can be done is to entwine more memories with the action, I believe, so that it's not only comprised of the ones which make you uncomfortable or miserable.