Ginia's breath catches in her chest as she searches for an answer. There isn't one that can encompass everything, not when so much context is missing from her life. But her memories are hers and there are things she can't deny.
{'You think you've never hurt a kid before? All the cars you've taken out, people you've shot while they were minding their own business, you think there wasn't some kid in the backseat, some poor kid finding their poor mommy or daddy with their head blown out?' Erika's hands unclench from Ginia's shirt as she shoves back, rubbing at the blood trickling from her swollen lip with the back of her hand. She looks away, mumbling, 'We're monsters, Ginia. Don't pretend you're innocent because you looked a baby in the eyes and couldn't pull the fucking trigger.'}
Erika's words echo in her mind, residual anger flaring and fading. Ginia knows she didn't personally kill Danny Cortez and baby Devon, but her action and indecision meant she might as well activated the detonator. Her shoulders slump, a helpless expression crossing her face.
"Here? I thought I was doing the right thing." What's done is done. The vice-principal can't hurt children any more. That she can't regret, but if she'd known about severing links, if there had been any other way... maybe things would have gone differently if someone else was there. But he ran into Shun and her.
"I can't justify what I did in my life." Her signs are halting as Ginia tries to keep herself together. "People died because of me. I can't change that."
CW: references to murder, child harm
{'You think you've never hurt a kid before? All the cars you've taken out, people you've shot while they were minding their own business, you think there wasn't some kid in the backseat, some poor kid finding their poor mommy or daddy with their head blown out?' Erika's hands unclench from Ginia's shirt as she shoves back, rubbing at the blood trickling from her swollen lip with the back of her hand. She looks away, mumbling, 'We're monsters, Ginia. Don't pretend you're innocent because you looked a baby in the eyes and couldn't pull the fucking trigger.'}
Erika's words echo in her mind, residual anger flaring and fading. Ginia knows she didn't personally kill Danny Cortez and baby Devon, but her action and indecision meant she might as well activated the detonator. Her shoulders slump, a helpless expression crossing her face.
"Here? I thought I was doing the right thing." What's done is done. The vice-principal can't hurt children any more. That she can't regret, but if she'd known about severing links, if there had been any other way... maybe things would have gone differently if someone else was there. But he ran into Shun and her.
"I can't justify what I did in my life." Her signs are halting as Ginia tries to keep herself together. "People died because of me. I can't change that."