Rin knew Sousuke would be uncomfortable with it. He knew he'd be pissed and might even try to point it out if it continued for too long. But there wasn't much to be done to fix it and he had a sneaking suspicion he wouldn't be able to hide it, much less tone it down. What could he say? This bothered him and it bothered him because this wasn't how they were supposed to be. He didn't want to be responsible for all this power. He didn't want to be told he was all knowing, all important, all wise and strong and everything in between. And most importantly, he didn't want Sousuke to be on uneven ground with him. How else was he supposed to feel? Was he honestly just expected to accept this new reality and pretend it wouldn't tear him apart each and every time he looked at his own best friend and couldn't tell him anything about who they used to be, who they were supposed to be?
Rin wasn't comfortable with this any more than Sousuke was... and just because he had his memories, both of theirs, it didn't mean he was any better. It didn't mean he was luckier.
Suddenly, from within those dark thoughts and emotions came a sudden spark of light which startled Rin and had him raising a hand to his chest as they walked and it wasn't until Sousuke strode up beside him that he knew from where and why it appeared. ... Sousuke was eager. Excited. And maybe if he focused long enough he would be able to see just how brightly his eyes shone as they gazed up at the castle through the petals and the trees. Would it always be that way, he wondered? Would he always be able to feel whatever Sousuke felt just like that? Strange, maybe a little more than evasive... but not an unpleasant sensation at all. So with a sigh he pocketed his hand again and let his eyes wander ahead as well, his lashes cold and still a little damp, but, yes, tear free. Admittedly it was tempting yesterday too, to just run up, throw back the doors and count all the rooms one by one. He thought about how many stairs there would be, if there were any expensive fireplaces or chandeliers, tables and ballrooms. And in hindsight, Rin supposed it wasn't entirely unfitting. After all... this was all pretty romantic, wasn't it?
"I'm sure I do. Just haven't found it." And towards those clipped responses, Rin raised a brow and turned his head towards Sousuke beside him. Huh. Now when did he think he could try and boss him around? He didn't say anything at first, but after a few beats he glanced down at their feet, back up to the pathway-- And picked up his footsteps a bit with a confident stretch of his legs. Yeah, he might have been wobbling a little earlier and he probably wasn't in the right state to walk faster, but that didn't matter. "I'm not that tired," he quipped just before they finally reached the grand entryway. Up close, the castle might have seemed more imposing based on sheer size alone. But the windows were clean, not a stone was out of place, and as soon as Rin stepped near, the large wooden doors slowly swung open in invitation. He could have done that himself. But no matter. Figuring out the ins and outs of how this massive estate functioned would have to wait until tomorrow. Until then, Rin nudged his head, gesturing for Sousuke to follow him into the entrance hall, where gold trim and red carpet stood bold and bright against polished white marble and a bubbling fountain beneath the crystal chandelier.
He already ventured beyond the foyer, between the twin stairs, right into the grand salon, and he already had a fair enough peek into the library down the left hall, but beyond that (aside from the one bedroom he all but collapsed in upstairs), the rest remained more or less a mystery. Needless to say though, that while this place was extravagant and even a little daunting, it was bright and offered more than enough space for the two of them to live comfortably.
"I only just got here yesterday," Rin finally replied once the doors shut behind them. And like it or not, he started walking towards the right stair case with all intentions of taking Sousuke along with him. "Come on. Keep up."
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Rin wasn't comfortable with this any more than Sousuke was... and just because he had his memories, both of theirs, it didn't mean he was any better. It didn't mean he was luckier.
Suddenly, from within those dark thoughts and emotions came a sudden spark of light which startled Rin and had him raising a hand to his chest as they walked and it wasn't until Sousuke strode up beside him that he knew from where and why it appeared. ... Sousuke was eager. Excited. And maybe if he focused long enough he would be able to see just how brightly his eyes shone as they gazed up at the castle through the petals and the trees. Would it always be that way, he wondered? Would he always be able to feel whatever Sousuke felt just like that? Strange, maybe a little more than evasive... but not an unpleasant sensation at all. So with a sigh he pocketed his hand again and let his eyes wander ahead as well, his lashes cold and still a little damp, but, yes, tear free. Admittedly it was tempting yesterday too, to just run up, throw back the doors and count all the rooms one by one. He thought about how many stairs there would be, if there were any expensive fireplaces or chandeliers, tables and ballrooms. And in hindsight, Rin supposed it wasn't entirely unfitting. After all... this was all pretty romantic, wasn't it?
"I'm sure I do. Just haven't found it." And towards those clipped responses, Rin raised a brow and turned his head towards Sousuke beside him. Huh. Now when did he think he could try and boss him around? He didn't say anything at first, but after a few beats he glanced down at their feet, back up to the pathway-- And picked up his footsteps a bit with a confident stretch of his legs. Yeah, he might have been wobbling a little earlier and he probably wasn't in the right state to walk faster, but that didn't matter. "I'm not that tired," he quipped just before they finally reached the grand entryway. Up close, the castle might have seemed more imposing based on sheer size alone. But the windows were clean, not a stone was out of place, and as soon as Rin stepped near, the large wooden doors slowly swung open in invitation. He could have done that himself. But no matter. Figuring out the ins and outs of how this massive estate functioned would have to wait until tomorrow. Until then, Rin nudged his head, gesturing for Sousuke to follow him into the entrance hall, where gold trim and red carpet stood bold and bright against polished white marble and a bubbling fountain beneath the crystal chandelier.
He already ventured beyond the foyer, between the twin stairs, right into the grand salon, and he already had a fair enough peek into the library down the left hall, but beyond that (aside from the one bedroom he all but collapsed in upstairs), the rest remained more or less a mystery. Needless to say though, that while this place was extravagant and even a little daunting, it was bright and offered more than enough space for the two of them to live comfortably.
"I only just got here yesterday," Rin finally replied once the doors shut behind them. And like it or not, he started walking towards the right stair case with all intentions of taking Sousuke along with him. "Come on. Keep up."