[Ren blinks at him like that is something he's never considered before...probably because if he's thought about "what if things had been different" at all, it's been wishing that he'd just never gotten that power. Not that he could have just not used it, despite that being pretty much what he does now.]

Oh. I guess it would have. [But here is another sheepish smile.] But I don't think I could have done it. That power, Psyqualia...it's addictive, in a way. I can ignore it now, but back then...I had never felt power like that, and it felt like all my dreams had just come true. Even if someone had said to me "just don't listen to them" I would have said "why shouldn't I? It's wonderful." Part of me still feels that way.