[And that is why Ren is even telling him all this. Because He Gets It. And he is very eager to find out exactly why he gets it, instead of just knowing that he's had his own experiences that mean he actually gets it...but he can be patient.]

I really hope everyone I talked to the other day remembers that too, if something like that ever happens again.

[Not that he had ever come out and said it like that to anyone, but he's hoping the message still got through and hopefully in a way that made it seem like they came up with it themselves.]

Mmm, I'll have to start back where I left off... [Before he went into exactly how Psyqualia screwed him up and was still more in story-telling mode.]

I thought Kai and Tetsu would be proud of how much stronger I'd gotten. Tetsu...was afraid of it but he went along with it. Kai hated it and what it was doing to me. Eventually he challenged me to a fight to try to get me to snap out of it. But I won that fight. So Kai left.

[And here he has to pause again, just to stare at his coffee for a moment, because that moment it still hard to think about, even now that he understands why and doesn't think Kai was wrong for doing it.]

I was so angry. And I hated him so much for that...