[It might be projecting, but it's projecting that's spot on, and Ren nods and slumps a little in his seat, relieved that he doesn't have to say it and that Shun seems to understand it.]
I didn't see him again for years after that. And a lot of what I did during that time, I did to spite him, or to prove him him that I was the one who was right, or to get even stronger so I could crush him when we met again. I used my power constantly; I terrorized a lot of people to forget about being lonely; I made our team into a company and recruited hundreds of people because he'd been upset about that idea, I won Nationals without him...
I spent most of that time angry and hating him from the bottom of my heart. I would have been a really awful shinki to have to deal with.
[He knows that from experience, since he can imagine that it would have been the same as having to live with Hibari's emotions. It had made it easier for him to live with them, but he still wouldn't wish that on anyone.]
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I didn't see him again for years after that. And a lot of what I did during that time, I did to spite him, or to prove him him that I was the one who was right, or to get even stronger so I could crush him when we met again. I used my power constantly; I terrorized a lot of people to forget about being lonely; I made our team into a company and recruited hundreds of people because he'd been upset about that idea, I won Nationals without him...
I spent most of that time angry and hating him from the bottom of my heart. I would have been a really awful shinki to have to deal with.
[He knows that from experience, since he can imagine that it would have been the same as having to live with Hibari's emotions. It had made it easier for him to live with them, but he still wouldn't wish that on anyone.]