[ She cocks her head to the side and studies him for a moment, looking thoughtful. ] 'He'? Do you mean Hitsugaya?
[ They'd spoken about this. Briefly.
She gives his hands another gentle squeeze and shakes her head with a quiet laugh. ]
Oh, trust me. I am still plenty afraid, Yoon. Shinki or not, going up against ayakashi.... these are like nothing I've ever faced before. And they feed on fear, on sadness, on despair, on anger. [ Even she hasn't been immune from some of it. ] On one hand, it makes them easier to fight, because you cannot look at them and think anything but 'monster' - something vastly different than if our enemy had been other humans. [ Which she now also has more experience with than she'd ever have wanted. ] But that doesn't make it any less frightening. Even for a god.
But my shinki or not, you would never be just some thing to be used. I know your feelings about fighting. I understand them - I even share them. But I also know there are times we need to fight. Maybe it's to protect ourselves or those important to us, or to protect someone who can't protect themselves. If there is an option to get around fighting, I'm certain we'll spot it if we work together. But I know that if we have to fight... Yoon, you are very high on a short list of people I would unquestioningly trust at my back. Or wherever else your shinki form happens to put you.
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[ They'd spoken about this. Briefly.
She gives his hands another gentle squeeze and shakes her head with a quiet laugh. ]
Oh, trust me. I am still plenty afraid, Yoon. Shinki or not, going up against ayakashi.... these are like nothing I've ever faced before. And they feed on fear, on sadness, on despair, on anger. [ Even she hasn't been immune from some of it. ] On one hand, it makes them easier to fight, because you cannot look at them and think anything but 'monster' - something vastly different than if our enemy had been other humans. [ Which she now also has more experience with than she'd ever have wanted. ] But that doesn't make it any less frightening. Even for a god.
But my shinki or not, you would never be just some thing to be used. I know your feelings about fighting. I understand them - I even share them. But I also know there are times we need to fight. Maybe it's to protect ourselves or those important to us, or to protect someone who can't protect themselves. If there is an option to get around fighting, I'm certain we'll spot it if we work together. But I know that if we have to fight... Yoon, you are very high on a short list of people I would unquestioningly trust at my back. Or wherever else your shinki form happens to put you.