You're wrong. I had complete faith in you when we first met. Faith in you was all that I had. I trusted you those first few days. I was confused, scared, alone... I had no other choice but to trust you. And I did. But you weren't there. I had no one. I didn't know or understand anything. When I was back to normal, the only thing I could think of was just getting back to you, that I'd be safe with you once I got back to the temple. And you shut me out.

[Her calm's starting to crumble again and now that she doesn't have to worry about blighting or stinging him with her feelings, she lets it happen. Without a god to protect, she's free to do so now.]

I had no idea why and I still don't. But it left an imprint. And Shizuo-san had warned me about gods and temples disappearing without warning the night before. You, yourself, told me being your shinki was dangerous. What was I supposed to do or think in that kind of situation? Knowing absolutely nothing?

[Tears began to slide down her cheeks.]

You tell me to ask for things as if that's all it takes. But I didn't even know what questions to ask! Did it ever occur to you that I might be unable to speak instead of unwilling?

[She wipes her eyes with her dress sleeve.]

I don't know why I am the way I am. But it's the way I am. And I don't know how to be any other way.