[Ginia nods. Ayumu is back and she's a god and Ginia can't decide whether that's fucked up or maybe as it should be. Bringing her back as a shinki wouldn't have made things better, it'd only be a matter of time before Ayumu needed an ablution again, right?
A prisoner of war tortured to death.
How is that fair to Chikusa and Ken? To Hakkai and Goku? They cared, dammit, they didn't want her to die and that's how she saw their actions? If they meant so little, surely she meant nothing.]
If she wanted to die so bad, she should have killed herself before anyone else got involved.
[The words are nasty and cold, but Ginia is done being polite and putting on a good face. The words come so quick because she's mulled on that during and since the ablution, but the dark underlying layer is also because the rest of the sentence is "that's what I would have done."
It's a flawed mindset of a broken individual who thinks very little of herself, who would rather die than hurt the ones she holds so dear (as if somehow her death and lost memories wouldn't hurt them more). Ginia flounders in her anger. Now that the words she's kept so close are out, there's only regret and guilt.]
CW: suicidal ideation
A prisoner of war tortured to death.
How is that fair to Chikusa and Ken? To Hakkai and Goku? They cared, dammit, they didn't want her to die and that's how she saw their actions? If they meant so little, surely she meant nothing.]
If she wanted to die so bad, she should have killed herself before anyone else got involved.
[The words are nasty and cold, but Ginia is done being polite and putting on a good face. The words come so quick because she's mulled on that during and since the ablution, but the dark underlying layer is also because the rest of the sentence is "that's what I would have done."
It's a flawed mindset of a broken individual who thinks very little of herself, who would rather die than hurt the ones she holds so dear (as if somehow her death and lost memories wouldn't hurt them more). Ginia flounders in her anger. Now that the words she's kept so close are out, there's only regret and guilt.]
That was cold. I shouldn't have said that.