[That's news to Hakkai; unpleasant news. His bout of hysteria is fading, the expression that replaces it a little more alert and less artificial. He considers Goku.]
I'm... only a little mad. I'm hard to get along with, so it's not all his fault.
[He finds himself briefly tongue-tied at the idea of describing how he does feel about Gojyo: it's a mess of longing, affection and sullen resentment, spiked with fear like a handful of broken glass, cutting him every time he tries to handle it.]
But I'm used to him getting along with me, so when he doesn't--
['It hurts my feelings' sounds a little too pathetic to actually say aloud. It's true, though, pathetic as it is. He wrinkles his nose; Goku can probably hear the end of the sentence perfectly well without Hakkai saying it. Unlike Gojyo, he remembers how to hear that sort of thing.]
It doesn't help that I'm afraid I could really hurt him. If he's reminded of the wrong thing, but that's not the only way.
[After all, Hakkai's already broken his arm. A broken bone isn't much next to the fear of what could happen to a shinki, here, though. Hurt feelings won't kill him as a god. If they're hurt badly enough, they can kill a shinki.]
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[That's news to Hakkai; unpleasant news. His bout of hysteria is fading, the expression that replaces it a little more alert and less artificial. He considers Goku.]
I'm... only a little mad. I'm hard to get along with, so it's not all his fault.
[He finds himself briefly tongue-tied at the idea of describing how he does feel about Gojyo: it's a mess of longing, affection and sullen resentment, spiked with fear like a handful of broken glass, cutting him every time he tries to handle it.]
But I'm used to him getting along with me, so when he doesn't--
['It hurts my feelings' sounds a little too pathetic to actually say aloud. It's true, though, pathetic as it is. He wrinkles his nose; Goku can probably hear the end of the sentence perfectly well without Hakkai saying it. Unlike Gojyo, he remembers how to hear that sort of thing.]
It doesn't help that I'm afraid I could really hurt him. If he's reminded of the wrong thing, but that's not the only way.
[After all, Hakkai's already broken his arm. A broken bone isn't much next to the fear of what could happen to a shinki, here, though. Hurt feelings won't kill him as a god. If they're hurt badly enough, they can kill a shinki.]