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thenearshore2018-09-21 04:51 pm
revolutionfalcon) wrote in thenearshore2018-09-21 04:51 pm
[closed] forward is whichever way you're facing
Who: Shun and Ren
When: Around January 22nd-23rd
Where: Mostly the Near Shore, probably
What: Shun just lost his exemplar and longest-standing shinki. He handles this about as well as he generally handles losing people close to him, but hey, at least he's inviting his boyfriend on his ayakashi-murdering rage bender this time.
[It's been eight months since Shun lost a shinki. He knows, because the day he lost Joker was the day he named Fubuki, off the back of both of them having lost their partner at the same time. He'd been meaning to do better since then, tried to do what he could to make his intentions clear...but if anything, he'd done even worse with Fubuki than he had with Joker, to the point he's surprised Fubuki didn't just ask for his name to be revoked by the end. And the less said about the mess he'd made with Reisi in the interim, the better.
Even having Fubuki ask for his name revoked would be better than this, though. The day starts with Shun waking up to an abrupt feeling of loss, one of four ties severed. It very nearly continues the same way it did when Yuto disappeared, in blindly throwing himself into work and refusing to allow any help that isn't absolutely necessary, but as he scrolls through the contact list to make certain of which of his shinki it is that's vanished - it's definitely Fubuki, the name is as gone as the feeling of their connection - he comes back up to a particular name. One who had gotten particularly upset about his disastrous reaction to Yuto's disappearance.
After a good minute of staring at the phone, Shun lets out a bracing sigh and taps the screen to call Ren, almost reluctantly bringing the speaker up to his ear. He'll just have to hope he actually answers it this early in the morning...]
When: Around January 22nd-23rd
Where: Mostly the Near Shore, probably
What: Shun just lost his exemplar and longest-standing shinki. He handles this about as well as he generally handles losing people close to him, but hey, at least he's inviting his boyfriend on his ayakashi-murdering rage bender this time.
[It's been eight months since Shun lost a shinki. He knows, because the day he lost Joker was the day he named Fubuki, off the back of both of them having lost their partner at the same time. He'd been meaning to do better since then, tried to do what he could to make his intentions clear...but if anything, he'd done even worse with Fubuki than he had with Joker, to the point he's surprised Fubuki didn't just ask for his name to be revoked by the end. And the less said about the mess he'd made with Reisi in the interim, the better.
Even having Fubuki ask for his name revoked would be better than this, though. The day starts with Shun waking up to an abrupt feeling of loss, one of four ties severed. It very nearly continues the same way it did when Yuto disappeared, in blindly throwing himself into work and refusing to allow any help that isn't absolutely necessary, but as he scrolls through the contact list to make certain of which of his shinki it is that's vanished - it's definitely Fubuki, the name is as gone as the feeling of their connection - he comes back up to a particular name. One who had gotten particularly upset about his disastrous reaction to Yuto's disappearance.
After a good minute of staring at the phone, Shun lets out a bracing sigh and taps the screen to call Ren, almost reluctantly bringing the speaker up to his ear. He'll just have to hope he actually answers it this early in the morning...]
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He comes to a stop next to Shun and looks like he'd probably give him a hug if not for the poleaxe but takes one of his hands to squeeze it lightly instead. He also looks like he isn't quite sure what to say--mostly because there's a lot that could be said but Shun might not appreciate much of it--but eventually settles on something small.]
I'm sorry.
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You don't have anything to apologise for. [It's not a dismissive remark, though - it's pretty clear he understands the intent behind the remark, he just doesn't want Ren to put more on himself than he needs to.] I suppose I should consider myself lucky it lasted this long.
[He doesn't sound particularly convinced of that himself, though, and especially at this particular timing...]
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[He's pretty sure Shun knows that...but not 100% sure, so he feels like he should say it anyway.]
He was here for a long time, wasn't he? [Ren can't help but squeeze Shun's hand again, a little more like he's clinging to give himself support this time. Thinking about how long Fubuki had been here really just makes it worse, and not just because they'd gotten the chance to be friends for that long. It's a reminder that no one is really safe, no matter how long they've been here, and he doesn't like thinking about that at all.]
I wish you could have parted on better terms.
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Eventually, he just lets out a very long, very tired breath.] I don't know if that's going to be true of any of my shinki at this point. I haven't had much of a record before now, either.
[Joker had been...well, they hadn't been on bad terms, but he's not quite sure they ever surpassed that point of Joker putting him on a pedestal. Reisi and Shun are on somewhat delicate terms already, Kotori can't disappear, and Chinatsu is probably the first one to have benefited from Shun recognising a pattern.]
I don't know that he wouldn't have put himself in danger from me if we'd gone on much longer. [Fubuki had been...not entirely prying, but getting a little too short with Shun about concealing information for any reason. Including information about Duel Monsters. He doesn't really want to know how that would have ended, if he's being honest.]
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[He gets the point, but he's not going to let Shun think he's been absolutely terrible for his shinki without some protest. Shun may not be the easiest person to get along with, but he always wanted what was best for his shinki. Even if unfortunately, that sometimes meant something frustrating for them.]
You could have always sent him to me if it got that far. [Then he realizes how that sounds and quickly adds:] --Just to talk about it. But I guess there's no way of knowing if I could have been persuasive enough either.
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It's less obvious with Munakata. And Chinatsu's been around the shortest time, so maybe I've learnt my lesson by now.
[He screwed up with Munakata around the time he named her, and that had been a significant slap to his senses. It's hard to be sure whether he would've been any safer talking to Ren either, and Shun shakes his head slightly.]
Not sure. He seemed pissed off with the idea that I was hiding anything from him, even if I was being as honest as I could be without endangering him, so he might've done the same with you. [He grimaces slightly, hesitating before he continues.] It took me a while to tell him about what happened to Johan, since they were from the same world and he knew that.
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He sighs a little and shakes his head too. If he ever finds out who decided it was a good idea to bring people from the same place and make some of gods and some shinki, he was really going to make that person regret it.]
Ah. I think I would have told him about that, if I'd known they were friends here. But I can see how that would be a difficult situation. Although with how freely so many people like to talk about it on the BBS, I'm amazed it isn't more of an issue, to be honest.
[He shifts, somewhat agitated by it even being a thing shinki could be aware of and worried about, but also like he might be subconsciously trying to shield his shinki from this conversation somehow. Not that he thinks there's much danger in soulless shinki starting to question things if they hear too much, but...it's still not something he really wants to risk.]
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[...All things considered, that part had been going on for a while. He doesn't miss Ren's discomfort about the subject of shinki and gods sharing worlds, though, and he doesn't necessarily disagree with the remark made, honestly.]
I suppose people have probably figured out what's safe and what isn't by now, but sometimes it still feels a little careless.