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Lu Meng Ziming ([personal profile] young_oldman) wrote in [community profile] thenearshore2016-10-28 03:36 pm

A fox that gains our trust but then breaks it as he walks

Who: Sanae and Lu Meng
What: Aftermath of this thread
Where: Sanae's temple grounds
When: Backdated to May 6th
Warnings: Blood

[Lu Meng doesn't let down his barrier, doesn't dare to even look away as the creature slinks off into the darkness. His hand remains stretched out to form the protective wall, and the other wraps around Sanae's shoulders, trying to keep her upright.]

Lady Kochiya. [His tone is tense but calm; the last thing he wants to do now is panic, or cause her to panic instead.] I don't know if that thing is gone. Till then I can't let down this barrier. Can you heal yourself? Otherwise, I'll need to send out a call for help.

[A call for healing...and a call to hunt down that cursed creature. His anger continues to boil inside him, but it's far eclipsed by his concern for her. She's lost so much blood, her skin sticky under his touch as he tries to stem the blood flow with his already soaked handkerchief. Gods can die, right? Of course she could reincarnate and return, but Lu Meng didn't want to rely on chance. She could also be one of those who perish and never return.]
miraculo: (chase it)

[personal profile] miraculo 2016-10-28 08:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ He may be keeping himself from panicking, but Sanae's not. She's never been in this sort of situation before. She's someone who can fly in space, can walk through a nuclear reactor without blinking an eye. Here she willingly gave blood to someone she believe to be a friend to help him, but she didn't expect to have half of her neck torn into so mercilessly. No, she's never been hurt this badly before-- and she hurts enough that even breathing is an effort in of itself. ]

A--aaah... [ She groans, blood gurgling at the back of her throat. ] P--....pray... to me...

[ She sputters, but there's an urgency in her voice, a desperate request-- no, a command that he does so. As a priestess she may have some capability of healing using herbs or holy energy, but her true power of miracles comes from belief, faith, and hope. If he wants her healed, she will heal herself, with what little energy she still has to spare. ] D--don't... please don't let anyone else worry.

[ Perhaps that should make him ask himself that if he didn't notice what was going on, would she have told him about this? ]
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-10-30 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ His devotion and faith prove her with enough, perhaps enough to be the equivalent of ten others and more. It's energy and power, hesitant and worrying but holding strong, much like how he's holding her. He's her anchor, he's her lifeline, reaching out to her through the darkness. And she seizes that lifeline, taking it by the hand and pressing it into her heart, feeling her energy return.

Her consciousness begins to return, despite the bleeding and ripped arteries that pulse blood form her neck, and that is the miracle. She should have passed out long ago, but she continues to hold onto him and the light she sees. Remaining awake by this sort of miracle is relatively quick; comparatively, healing her skin and wounds is slower but eventually the bleeding subsides, and he will still have to hold pressure to the wound. She has lost enough to remain tired and weak.

She coughs, but that's a good sign to be strong enough to spew out what she's accidentally aspirated, yet the tangy, coppery flavor stays with her enough to make her feel sick. ]
...I.... it... hurts.

[ This wound hurts. The thought that she couldn't help her friend more hurts. The thought that she let that creature have so much of her before fending him off. The thought that her gods in her world would be disappointed for being drained so much. The thought that she's worried him more hurts. ] It hurts...

[ She should be stronger. ]
miraculo: (chase it)

[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-05 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
A---aa. [ She affirms, wincing when she realizes she cannot truly nod. ] I c-can... I can telep-p...port us.

[ She struggles to say, feeling another sharp wave of pain and dizziness. But she knows that she has to do something to help, to make it easier-- if not for her, then for him. She doesn't want him to think that this has beat her. She doesn't want him to think that she's weak for letting a creature bite her.

Sanae grips his arm tightly, closing her eyes and thinking of her temple, her new home. Within the next instant, they're transported back, landing right on her bed. The mattress makes for a nice cushion when they appear. The sheets will be stained with some of her blood, but that's the last thing on her mind. Now that she's in the safety of their home, she feels some of her guards being let down out of relief. She begins to tremble, feeling her body give away to the stress of the events of the day.

Her head lolls to the side, but she remains awake, breathing heavily and trying to keep them from shaking. ]
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-05 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ Prayers are a powerful tool to gods, especially one who has been working miracles since before she came to this world. Indeed there are no more puncture marks. The skin is intact, but if he presses down upon her neck he'll feel the firmness of blood pooled within the tissues and see the discoloration of a hematoma. However, it's stabilized, and she only winces because the extra blood there puts pressure upon nerves and muscles. Like any other deep bruise, it will take time to heal completely within, and for he blood to reabsorb or break down completely.

Sanae remains on the bed as he cleans over her skin. The wet, warm cloth feels soothing in comparison to the biting, and her expression relaxes when he presses it to her neck. She tries to focus in of that touch, not the fact that he's partially pulled down her yukata...

... Or that he'd about to discover another discoloration upon the back of her neck, once he brushes back her hair. ]
I... I didn't mean for this to happen. [ She feels that she must explain. ] He was-- Zero is a friend. But he has this hu-hunger, because he's also a vampire. [ He presses over one particularly tender stop, and she grips the sheets tightly, letting the moment pass. ] I thought th-that... that I could give him blood, to sate him.

[ But she underestimated how much he needed. Or wanted. And how much she would enrage him, talking down to him like that.... And where that side to her came from, she doesn't want to explore at this moment. She's too tired, and aching too much. ]
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-05 05:57 am (UTC)(link)
[ And, of course, if he lectured her she would still insist it was right of her to help her friend out for better or for worse. She would have done the same thing for him. She would do the same thing again, despite his lecture, albeit with a little more caution. She always wants to help, as she always believes she's capable of it. Today is the one time she realizes that what she tried to do wasn't something she was entirely prepared for.

Sanae's physical pain may have decreased, but she feels awful, like a failure.

Her eyes flutter open when she hears Lu Meng gasp, and it takes her a moment to figure out what he's just found. Her eyes widen, as she feels her hair being brushed back, and immediately her hand goes up to stop him. The movement is a bit too much as it's the arm on the same side she was bitten, and the nerve is still tender. At most her hand now rests on his shoulder, but her grip is weak.

As is her protest. ]
N--no.

[ She doesn't want him to see it. Not now. ]
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-05 04:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He would have found out eventually, she tells herself. She would have told him eventually, too, during a time when she knows he could handle it better. But who is she kidding-- the first time he blighted her, it was when she had dismissed him, when he felt guilt. When he felt useless to his lady. Of course he would take it hard no matter how long she delayed to reveal this to him. Of course he would blight her again.

The sting is more painful this time, causing her to choke loudly on air, her hand tightening upon his shoulder. The blight spreads a bit more across her back and almost reaching out to the bruise from the bight on her neck. No longer can she hide it beneath her clothes as they are; she'll have to find a scarf of some sort, or a higher collar. But she doesn't need to hide is anymore because he knows, he knows and he's trying hard to remain strong for her, when she knows that this is her fault.

His anger beneath the surface. His sorrow. His shame. She feels all three through their connection as he continues to wipe at her skin. But it is knowing that he's in pain as well that hurts her more than the blight could ever stab her. ]
....This is... it's alright.

[ She manages to say, her shoulders shaking. No, what she said just now isn't alright. Taking another breath, she steadies herself. ] --No. It isn't alright.

I'm-- Lu Meng, I'm so sorry, I-- [ With her apology, she feels a rush of emotions consume her. A dam called her pride had been holding her back, but now that all pretense of being strong, or trying to be strong in front of him, is gone, she lets her vulnerability show. ] I'm so sorry!

[ She says, and then reaches out to him, wanting to hold him tightly as her eyes begin to leak. ] I--... I didn't want to worry you. I didn't want to upset you, you've been nothing but the best shinki I could ever ask for, but I know how you are-- I can feel it, that you're angry an-- and upset, and this isn't your fault, your emotions are your own, it's-- it's me. This is how you tell me what's right and wrong, what way to go, and--

[ And she ignored it. She put the blight off, wanting to hide it. Wanting to not acknowledge his guilt. In a moment of clarity, she begins to realize how foolish she's been. ] I'm so sorry, Lu Meng. I'm weak... and I was scared... [ Her arms tighten around him, knowing that her apologies won't be enough. She's hurt him, in a way she's betrayed him and his trust, and this sort of wound will take time to heal. ]

D-...don't... leave. I... I still need you here.
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-05 07:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He hasn't pushed her away, and instead his arms have tightened around her. She feels frail in his strong arms, he's a reminder that she has much to learn, and that she isn't strong, at least not as strong as she thought she'd be on her own. She needs him here, she has no one else she's as close to in this world. ] Y-yes...

[ Yes to the scoldings. Yes to everything. She doesn't care if he will stay. If she has another chance to make up for this. ] This was... my fault. All my fault. [ And he should know that it is, no excuses. It was she that didn't call him to help, it was she that didn't tell him about the blight. ] S-so... Let me hear everything you have to say. You're my exemplar, you have that right.

[ After another sob, she pulls slightly away from him so she can look up at his face, puffy eyed and with tears streaming down her cheeks. Still, she manages a smile. It's not forced at all, but something between being apologetic and relieved. ] An-and... just promise me, that you'll let me know if there's anything you need from this.

I said it before, that whatever you want or wish for... I'll give.
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-08 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
[ With the calmer mood, she's able to reconcile some of her own distress into something tamer. So when she speaks next, her tone is steadier. ]

You've o-only done so three times. [ She's felt his guilt and remorse, and felt it strongly from how he's blighted her. But it's only happened three times. ] Today, and.... do you remember when we first met? I had just embraced you when you weren't ready, and you had pushed me off. [ Thinking back to that, how shrill and stiff he had been with a hug-- she should have asked first. But he's changed a lot since then. They even made their own handshake, and he even has his hands on her shoulders right now to comfort her! ] I'm... not quite sure what you were feeling back then, but it caused a sharp sting.

The next time, it was shortly after we first met, when we were trying to solve that prayer for the young man looking for a job. I had dismissed you, and when I did... [ Well, he knows.

She turns around for him, beginning to undo her kimono and loosening the top. The blood-soaked silk slips off of her shoulders luxuriously, but she doesn't let the fabric fall too far off of her. Keeping it close to her chest means that the silk dips lower in the back, allowing him to see the extent of the blight. To help with her hair, she uses an extra pin to keep those wavy strands off her back so that he may see.

She doesn't need to see it herself to feel how it's grown with this third and final sting, as she feels it dipping below her neck and between her shoulder blades like a tail. ]
How does it look? D-does it look bad? [ She asks worriedly, looking over her shoulder.
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-10 04:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ Just as she asks, she winces from the contact of the holy water onto her blighted, purple tinged skin. A slow exhale hisses out from between clenched teeth, and and arm braces against the mattress of her bed. ] It's....--it's not terrible.

[ She eventually stammers. True, it hasn't been much of a bother. But now that it's being treated, the stinging rears its ugly head once again for the first few wipes of the cloth on her back. ] A-actually... it's starting to feel a little bit better.

[ She concentrates on capping her pain and reactions, if only to make him less guilty, quieting as he works. Slowly but surely, the blight is beginning to fade away as his remorse is known, as the holy water clears away the curse. ] ....I.... [ After a few extra, silent moments she swallows, biting her lip. Her eyes are trained on the floor, her brow knitting together. ] ....I should have told you sooner.

[ This could have been solved weeks ago. She wonders, in part, if his guilt is greater now that he's known her better. Now that they've become closer, shared meals under cherry blossoms and screens in the arcade. ] You... deserve better from me, as your friend.

[ "Friends don't let other friends worry" is what she would apply to herself. But she realizes that if he thought the same, she would reply that "Friends have a right to worry for other friends." She wouldn't want to be carefree and happy, to laugh and smile, knowing that he was in pain.

Ah, the holy water feels crisp cold as the excess drips down her back... ]
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-10 05:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Perhaps it's because she's tired, she's sorrowful, or that her pride has been beaten down, but she doesn't mind that he's seeing the sarashi wrapped around her chest. Her mind is too preoccupied with other things to bother with concealing that undergarment or more skin, and besides, he's only seeing this because he's cleaning the blight away.

Still, she shivers because without the silk of her kimono and with the water cooling her back, it's colder. Sanae closes her eyes, keeping the stutter out of her voice. ]
I... yes. I understand. [ She is needed by her followers. She must make decisions to keep herself safe in order to better serve them.

And that doesn't mean hiding her blight or afflictions or any injuries. It means that addressing them properly and swiftly, because that would be the fastest route to recovery, not letting them prolong and fester. It also means that-- ]
I... I can't do things alone.

[ She says at last, and now her tone shakes, defeated because she's finally admitting that she is only one person. One person despite being a god. A young woman no more than twenty one. ] I need your help and-- a-and guidance.

[ Her eyes, still shut, and squeezed tightly. She feels a new dampness trail down the side of her cheek, and she chokes. The blight is almost gone. Her skin no longer hurts, but her heart begins to weep, letting her insecurities show. ] Does... does it not disappoint you, that I am not more capable on my own? [ Would it disappoint Kanako? Suwako? Only they can truly answer that themselves, but Sanae seems to be placing this burden upon herself, that they would indeed believe so. ] That I've... failed to protect myself, from this happening?
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-11 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She feels like a child, for not telling him sooner. A better person would have known how to solve this situation, or better yet-- prevent it from happening at all. Sanae has standards she's posted for herself that are, quite frankly, unreachable. But here he is, pointing out that she's still young. That mistakes can be made, and that she can still learn from them.

She has to accept that she is not strong, at least not as strong as she'd like to be. So in order to be strong, she has to depend on others to make up for her faults. Where one fails, two together can succeed, and that is where Lu Meng comes in.

Her sobs continue for a few moments more as he wipes away the last of her blight, but her tears are only because it's difficult to stop once she's started. ]
M--mm. [ She nods slowly when she gains a hold on her voice, preventing it from shaking further. ] I... promise. I promise that I'll be more open with you.

[ She realizes that she has a lot more to be open with him about, too. But those topics are for another day. Sanae turns slightly, looking over her shoulder. ] Okay?
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[personal profile] miraculo 2016-11-12 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ It would be so natural to protest. In fact, a small "But..!" escapes her in a gasp when he issues the new rule.

Sanae stops herself, and instead nods, smiling. She doesn't need to wipe away her tears because he's done so already. And she hopes that she will be able to fully mend whatever damage she's done here. ]
That's a... fair punishment.

[ She says, but it's not without a laugh. ] One whole week? Will I have to spend the entire time tending to the bunnies out back?

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