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Eh? What's wrong with what I said?

[Was it too much... He'll try to watch quietly now, still hovering over his shoulder and watching with way too much interest.]

[Jae-Ha is so cute, what the fuck, this is how Hazel dies. He just hums, moving down the row to keep watering these little flower babies.]

Nothin', never mind. I'm concentratin'.

[Hazel is the one who's cute. Look at him, trying this hard!! Jae-Ha keeps his mouth shut now, watching with great interest as Hazel waters them. He probably doesn't need any correcting. The flowers won't die from a tiny bit too much or too little water, and he wouldn't want to correct Hazel if he didn't have to, anyway.

He almost wants to pull out his phone and take a picture, but he resists.

So at the end, he holds his hands out to take the watering tin back with a happy smile.]

Thank you.

[Thanks for not taking candid shots of him pouting at flowers, Jae-Ha. Nobody else needs to witness this behavior.

He hands the tin back to Jae-Ha when he's through, giving the little plants one last look. They're just going to die, soooo... why thank him for that?? Whatever. At least he got a nice smile for his efforts.]

Sure. Is that all we gotta do? [how do you plant, tell him google-ha]

[So Jae-Ha has a lot in common with these flowers. He's beautiful, he lived a short life, he smells great—]

I haven't turned the planter in the window recently, so I'll do it again so they won't grow in crooked.

[He sets the watering tin aside to do this, looking fondly down at the flowers. Even if Hazel's not into it, he will view them as tiny plant children. A little.]

That's all for today... But I do need to get through all of the others.

[how fast does jae-ha grow]

The rest of the plants? [Hmm... Fine, he will continue to be the supportive bf today.] Alright, let's see 'em.

[Hazel should know,,,]

You don't mind? [He doesn't want to push this too much... But awesome, he won't hesitate either! Reaching with one of his hands, he takes one of Hazel's again and takes the watering tin with the other, moving along to the next window for another row of flowers.]

You know, I don't think I've ever really cared for plants or anything similar, but something about this is almost nostalgic. [Caring for babies is close enough.] No matter how much is going on, it's nice to have something to relax with.

[he does,,,,

Anyway, "relaxing" isn't how he'd describe this, but he just hums and follows Jae-Ha along to the next flowers. Holding hands is much more relaxing than watering plants, which is work and also pointless?? Hmm.]

I s'pose... Havin' a hobby's good. [Hazel just doesn't have any hobbies that don't frustrate him?? Ah. Anyway, Jae-Ha can water these while he just stands there and watches, cool.]

[Hm... Hazel still sounds so hesitant talking about this. Does he not get it?? Is he just being polite by not saying much?? Probably. Jae-Ha is quiet for the first half of the flowers, but as he moves on, he glances briefly to Hazel.]

Are you just thinking I'm weird to enjoy this?

[Wow, why must Jae-Ha play hardball about gardening? Hazel is genuinely surprised about being asked that, god...]

No, I'm just not cut out for raisin' flowers, that's all. This is hardly the weirdest thing you've ever done.

You don't have to put it like that.

[His ego... He's never weird??? But he looks back to the flowers, finishing up his watering. It's not like he'd mind if Hazel finds it weird, he's just feeling like he's not quite understanding something himself. Maybe he'll just... pay more attention, and bring attention to this a little less.]

Is there something you enjoy doing? Aside from reading. [do u have hobbies hazel]

I'm bein' honest. [Heh... Jae-Ha is sooo weird and that's just fine, Hazel likes him that way, what would he do if Jae-Ha weren't such an odd person?? Not fit in, probably. Gosh.

But that brief sappy thought aside, hm, does he... enjoy doing anything...] I like spendin' time with ya.

[he has no hobbies]

[...Okay, on the one hand, he didn't expect a cute answer like that and he actually looks surprised before leaning in a little more to water this last flower. On the other hand...]

Is that all?

[This is bullying... leave him alone. He's been busy for a while, okay!!]

Alright, what's your point?

[Ugh, but he's cute... Jae-Ha laughs quietly, setting the watering can aside again because he's done anyway and he'd rather face Hazel and take his cheek in his free hand.]

If I had known I was your only source of pleasure, I wouldn't hold back nearly as much as I do now.

[Is lightening the mood working.] How can you relax when I'm not around? There must be something you haven't found yet.

[Jae-Ha!! Hazel blinks at him, frowns briefly, sighs a little. The stupid comments do help, but that in itself is also embarrassing...]

I'll get to askin' the internet about it. That'll work nicely, don't ya think?

[let him live]

Now you're just being mean.

[He doesn't mean to meet weirdos on the internet, he just likes to talk. ...He was actually thinking about asking the internet for hobby ideas himself. Now he can't. Instead, he leans closer and places a tiny little kiss on his lips.

He's trying to hide it, but now he's worrying...!! Should he actually feel bad for all the times he leaves Hazel to run off? He can't help his nature, he can't sit still, even with how attached he is to one person. They can spend day after day together but at some point Jae-Ha will need to run off and do something else, so... What does Hazel do... Is he actually just lonely??? There's a quickly spiraling train of thought here based on past events and conversations, you see.]

What about... something you've always wanted to try. Is there nothing like that?

[Oh thank god, he inadvertently saved them both that episode of shame. He'll gladly take this tiny kiss instead of having to screen every hobby idea Jae-Ha comes across for things like safety level and stupidity quotient. Good.

That aside, something he's always wanted to try... Well, it's not as if he had high aspirations as a child, and even the ones he did have were pretty much reduced to nothing without warning and then everything just kept getting worse, so.

No?]

Nothin' that's really likely to happen, I guess. [but never mind this.] It's not like I'm bein' kept away from some great and wonderful this-or-that, y'know.

[Wording it like that... It makes his heart sink a little. He'd never say this aloud, because he's promised Hazel he wouldn't leave him, but realistically, he's already died once. He's dead and Hazel isn't. Not only that, but even if he doesn't want to die again at all, he'd do it to assure Hazel's safety.]

Well, no, but...

[How does he even explain any of his worries if they'd only create more worries to begin with? He swipes his thumb lightly over Hazel's cheek and then pulls that hand away, blinking to the side.]

I want to see more of your smile.

[Everyone dies— everyone dies and slips through his fingers and he can't even talk about it. Or think about it, most of the time, since he forces himself not to; even now, he's just looking at Jae-Ha and wondering what the big deal is about what a no-fun miser he is on his own.

Like, besides the obvious no-fun miser parts. He's fine.]

You're sweet. I'll see what I can do, promise. [He probably doesn't deserve this, but now that he has it, he's not just going to let go. That said,] What's wrong?

[Come on... talk 2 him]

[What's wrong... Why does he have to ask like that? He can't answer by saying that Hazel might lose one more thing, and saying anything about what he's already gone through wouldn't help anything, either. There's no good way to answer honestly, and he doesn't have the heart to lie outright, either.

He smiles a little, curling his fingers with Hazel's.]

I'm just worried for you. [That's honest, at least, and hopefully not too insulting.] I can get to be a bit much in a few different ways, so wouldn't it be better to have more you can relax and enjoy?

[He's really too sweet, Hazel should have specified... Sure, sometimes it's lonely when he's left on his own - the two of them together sure are a lot compared to sitting around by himself, and before coming here he'd hardly been out of Gat's company for more than a few hours, if that. But still, this place - in a lot of ways, it's a lot more merciful than wandering around the woods back home.

He squeezes Jae-Ha's hand lightly. Shh, he is okay.]

Lately it seems like the best thing to do when ya aren't around is catch up on sleepin'. [like okay but really,] I'm alright, y'know. If it makes ya feel better, I'll find somethin' to occupy myself every now and then.

[Ugh... He really is going to work his hardest to live, no matter what. He's not like Kija, he won't run recklessly into things and risk his life at every turn, but... Ah, what's he doing, thinking about grim things like this? Why is he automatically thinking about how he'd give his life for Hazel?

He decides to distract himself from this and answer Hazel by leaning down into another kiss. This time, it's deeper, but he still keeps it fairly short.]

I don't want you doing anything simply because I'd feel better for it. [Just to be clear, that's not very free!!] But it would be nice if you could enjoy things more.

[Stop this man... Hazel's little heart can't take all this concern and care coming out of nowhere!! Seemingly nowhere. He's fine, so.

He hums thoughtfully, shuffling closer to Jae-Ha after that next kiss and slipping his free arm around his waist. Hold him, thanks.]

Does doin' a thing I don't like over and over sound like me? [please...] Trust me, I'll handle it real well.

[He handles everything Real Well.]

[Is he fine... Jae-Ha hopes he's fine, but he'll still worry sometimes over the tiniest things, and also the bigger things. For now, he hooks his own free arm around Hazel's shoulders, holding him close. Hmm.]

I'll count on that. [He hopes he'll never have to get emotional enough to shake Hazel and yell at him in his worry. This little bit of fretting is fine in comparison to how he could lose his cool.] But all of that said, spending time with you happens to be my favorite hobby.

Perhaps I'll focus time just on that after I've watered everything outside.

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